英文阅读：谦虚与自信的平衡心态

 "These aren't even that good. I think I could do better." That's one of the reasons I started writing. Because I was reading other articles and that thought came to mind. I've even thought that about books. Famous books. Brilliant books.

“这些都不够好，我觉着自己能做得更好。”这就是我开始写作的原因之一，因为我在读别人的文章时就有了这个想法。我甚至有过书里的想法，包括名著典和经典作品。
 
Who the fuck am I to think that?
我是谁呀？怎么有资格那么想？
That's my ego.
这就是我的自我价值感。
And I'm grateful for it.
我很欣赏这种自我价值感。
 
Because I never would've started writing without it. I never would've found something I love to do without it. I never would've been able to quit my 9-5 without it.
因为如果不是因为我的自我价值感，我就不会开始写作，也永远不会找到我所爱的东西，也不会放弃重复乏味的生活。
But...
但是……
Sometimes I get too caught up in it. I'll let other people's accomplishments get inside me and make me feel bad. I become jealous. I become resentful.
有时候我会陷入其中，我总是想着别人的成就，对自己产生不满，我开始感到嫉妒和怨恨。
I let myself be tricked into think I'm not good enough, or doing enough, or being enough. That's when my ego becomes unhelpful.
我开始想：我不够好，或者我做的不够，或者我没有足够的。就在那时，我的自我价值感开始变得无用了。
I don't think having an ego is good or bad.
我觉着自我价值感既不是好事也不是坏事。
I think it's good and bad.
我认为它其实好坏兼备。